Sound my passion. Fetish my lifestyle.
05 März 2022, 05:04 text with 17 pdf-datas of proof encluded send to Torture Garden email-adress for your eyes and mind to see, read and understand:
Hello again, Torture Garden, my fetish scene of body art and expression open minded,
for you to see in this Email my new "art work" type office style: these days a little more painful getting up, but with 45 years of human age, "normal".
All my longings for asking my colleagues for support, not successful, but staying alive, praying to the good and the bad and universal forces with clean thoughts:
got me further. Still many wishes wanting to have fullfilled in this lifeform, specially getting back my daughter's respect. The connection to her couldn't be destroyed but the pain of missing her, seeing her growing up, at times not bearable.
Maybe you had a look on my webspaces in the meantime, specially Facebook: my advantage is not to be stuck in listening to just genre of electronic music but everything produced with emotion, complicated rthythms and bass making the dancefloor vibrate and just recently again: give me the energy to keep dancing forgetting time and pain.
Unforgotten for me, my parties at TORTURE GARDEN Events but then discovered the reality of torture being practised of medical staff and politicians.
Since then fighting to get human rights respected and the laws being kept, not just playing games in the system of justice together with avocats, earning money their longing, not using their intelligence to help or create better circumstances.
I was strong enough, to not give up my motivation: my works of art never featured and me being put onto the ground and stepped on, knowing my though life story of force and hurt.
My wish always: to be respected in the societies, not just looked and treated like a sex object and me comming back now, with the information of never been and felt like a female, having a female body, should have cause surprise for the one or other.
All my suffering worthwhile having arrived in these new BERLIN with laws been changed or about to change:
right of self-determination and transsexual-law to change name and civil status more easily.
All along, while locked up in Geneva, I knew the lower intellect of my opposition and just being driven by their drive, to see and make me suffer,
but I saw a little possibility of when getting out and finding a way back into society and my surrounding most wanted: the dancefloor,
I could have a chance to let them all know, that every action will have a result.
I cleared my karma by living for about 3 years travelling in Switzerland's nature around, sleeping mostly outside or in churches, managed to stay inside before locked in, not anymore my will really to survive, but waking up happened sooner or later again to a new day.
Sleeping never been my activity wanted, enhanced by stimulating substances, specially when younger. Nowadays fighting for some hours of sleep,
cause knowing the happenings in realtity and missing my daughter keeping me awake.
But rested enough to have stayed alive, to share my news with you and my admiration, for the community, I'm most grateful, too.
My fetish still making my world go round cause, loving plastics, metal and even back to leather, animal skin keeping me company, not feeling lonely.
Much more to tell, but for now, I will sign with my name and title:
Dominus Herrin TechartS update: WARLOCK Herrin TechartS aka HTS
Love to hear from you, happy to found connection again via Internet. Connection of my spirit to you all never broke up...
PS: Fetish scene experienced in Berlin just after arriving in July 2021 by attending roof top parties @ A7 made my happy enough to keep going.
All organisers really full of themselves but my self-esteem and feeling of being worth more than just to be looked at like flesh, gained back and for good!!
Om Namah Shivaya.